I was shocked to hear about your death. It was a bad week for me, that.
But generally, I think I have learnt to survive.
Been living and travelling on my own since I was 18 and well its been 8 years now.
Along the way, I have learnt to balance & compensate, roll with the punches and go with the flow... and barring a few people, my parents and cricket for example, I am a find-replacement kind of person.
It's an approach that has resulted in my making most of what comes my way; with no permanent strings attached. We were not very close friends, except perhaps for the last 2 months.
I wish I could tell you that I think about you from time to time. I think all of us realise that you stood for things beyond MBA level competition.
In you I could recognise a fellow journeyman. While you were showing symptoms of slowing down, I was still game for more. :)
I must confess though, that you had been a round a lot more than I have, but there is no way to compare now is it ??
So here I am, on a fucked up saturday... waiting since 9 for a project review, for an internship about which you gave me very strict instructions, and feeling pretty empty about what is essentially sound work...
Now I realise. Maybe it's freedom I so desire. I must admit that nowadays, on reflex, I sometimes think of how you would have done something. Met someone. Had a good time. Generally.
It makes me do something, like writing this blog, that I generally don't do in my everyday life. Reveal myself.
You are dead. But you know.. maybe it's teaching us something you tried everyday of your life to convey and generally failed.
Learning comes at a price, doesn't it ?
Hmm.. why the f*** did I write so much crap ? ;) (Sorry Annie. Ghising. :D)
But generally, I think I have learnt to survive.
Been living and travelling on my own since I was 18 and well its been 8 years now.
Along the way, I have learnt to balance & compensate, roll with the punches and go with the flow... and barring a few people, my parents and cricket for example, I am a find-replacement kind of person.
It's an approach that has resulted in my making most of what comes my way; with no permanent strings attached. We were not very close friends, except perhaps for the last 2 months.
I wish I could tell you that I think about you from time to time. I think all of us realise that you stood for things beyond MBA level competition.
In you I could recognise a fellow journeyman. While you were showing symptoms of slowing down, I was still game for more. :)
I must confess though, that you had been a round a lot more than I have, but there is no way to compare now is it ??
So here I am, on a fucked up saturday... waiting since 9 for a project review, for an internship about which you gave me very strict instructions, and feeling pretty empty about what is essentially sound work...
Now I realise. Maybe it's freedom I so desire. I must admit that nowadays, on reflex, I sometimes think of how you would have done something. Met someone. Had a good time. Generally.
It makes me do something, like writing this blog, that I generally don't do in my everyday life. Reveal myself.
You are dead. But you know.. maybe it's teaching us something you tried everyday of your life to convey and generally failed.
Learning comes at a price, doesn't it ?
Hmm.. why the f*** did I write so much crap ? ;) (Sorry Annie. Ghising. :D)
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