Hi Gullu,
Yar it’s been three months since I have open my heart at fully to anyone at IIFT. I just miss you like anything bhai. Gullu yar tera intezar rehta hai har time. Yar tere bina bahut khali lagta hai bhai, tu to janta hi hai yar tu hi tha ek jisse main har bat kehta tha. but yar tere jane se ek aisa void create ho gaya hai jo nahi bharat hai yar. kabhi kabhi yar mujhe bahut kuch kehna hota hai par ab batein dil ke hih andar reh jati hai. Tere se baatein karke yar jo sukun milta tha wo aaj nahi milta hai. Kafi time aisa aaya yar ki bahut kuch kehne ka man kiya par yar koi nahi tha jisse main kuch keh kar apna dil halka kar saku. Yar I just miss u a lot. Parties aaj bhi hoti hai yar par ek ki kami hamesha hi rehti hai….. aaj jab “chingari chingari bheegi dekho bheegi dekho “ gane ka man karta hai to Sali aawaj hi nahi nikalti hai. Sab dil me hi reh jata hai yar.
Yar aunty ko call karne ka man karta hai bahut jyada but himmat hi nahi hoti hai meri. Bahut bar chaha hai call karna but shayad mere andar abhi aneesha jaisi himmat nahi hai.
Love u a lot yar…..
Pandu….
Friday, July 31, 2009
After a month at IIFT
Abhishek,
It's been more than a month since I rejoined college. More than a month that I've been here since you haven't been. It was a too-darn-tough month too. Initially I would subconsciously look for you everywhere, wonder why you weren't around. Then I tried to talk to a lot of people to avoid facing the emptiness I was feeling. I lost interest in classes, feeling how futile everything was, why we indulged in all these mundanes of life knowing of our ultimate end.
Somewhere in the middle, I felt my usual claustrophobia, you know what I mean, and found the courage to just go out and watch a movie on my own. Not that I haven't done it before but this time I had different demons to conquer.
I guess I am getting used to it now. I wouldn't say that I am going back to where I was before I met you but I seem to be going to a new place which is similar and yet very different. So you'd be glad to know that you succeeded in changing my attitude in many ways. I guess this is life and each of us has to face it and live it. How to find the strength to go on? Well I guess we just have to look within.
Oh by the way, it's been long since I saw your Mom. I miss her and a phone call doesn't quite cut it anymore. So make it happen.
You know we miss you here. Sometimes it is a flash, sometimes it is a story and sometimes it is just like a background process. To each their own.
Peace and love,
Me.
It's been more than a month since I rejoined college. More than a month that I've been here since you haven't been. It was a too-darn-tough month too. Initially I would subconsciously look for you everywhere, wonder why you weren't around. Then I tried to talk to a lot of people to avoid facing the emptiness I was feeling. I lost interest in classes, feeling how futile everything was, why we indulged in all these mundanes of life knowing of our ultimate end.
Somewhere in the middle, I felt my usual claustrophobia, you know what I mean, and found the courage to just go out and watch a movie on my own. Not that I haven't done it before but this time I had different demons to conquer.
I guess I am getting used to it now. I wouldn't say that I am going back to where I was before I met you but I seem to be going to a new place which is similar and yet very different. So you'd be glad to know that you succeeded in changing my attitude in many ways. I guess this is life and each of us has to face it and live it. How to find the strength to go on? Well I guess we just have to look within.
Oh by the way, it's been long since I saw your Mom. I miss her and a phone call doesn't quite cut it anymore. So make it happen.
You know we miss you here. Sometimes it is a flash, sometimes it is a story and sometimes it is just like a background process. To each their own.
Peace and love,
Me.
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