Is this real?

Is this for real? Is this really happening? I can't believe you are not here. Your thoughts, your actions, your words - all are real in my memory. Do you remember how we would talk to each other about our extended friend circles? Nowadays I talk about you like that. As though you are a dear friend located in a far off place and every time I think of you, I talk of you to whosoever is around me. And then I have this thought in my mind... wonder when I will see you again.

Am I really not seeing you again? I don't know how that can be! I blink and see you right here. Where did you disappear just like that? No, I am not in denial. It just seems so unreal, fictitious, intangible. And yet I have been living with this supposed reality for over four months. Wonder how I did. I can no longer remember.

Well exams are back again and I just keep drifting back to 3rd term exams. I remember that day we were preparing for International Finance and you just lied down in the CC, listening to Sassy explain some futures or something. I couldn't follow it but you did and I got annoyed with you for that. :) You know I wasn't annoyed with you. I was annoyed with the fact that I just couldn't get it!

Anyhow. I don't know what else to say except that I miss you.