After a month at IIFT

Abhishek,

It's been more than a month since I rejoined college. More than a month that I've been here since you haven't been. It was a too-darn-tough month too. Initially I would subconsciously look for you everywhere, wonder why you weren't around. Then I tried to talk to a lot of people to avoid facing the emptiness I was feeling. I lost interest in classes, feeling how futile everything was, why we indulged in all these mundanes of life knowing of our ultimate end.

Somewhere in the middle, I felt my usual claustrophobia, you know what I mean, and found the courage to just go out and watch a movie on my own. Not that I haven't done it before but this time I had different demons to conquer.

I guess I am getting used to it now. I wouldn't say that I am going back to where I was before I met you but I seem to be going to a new place which is similar and yet very different. So you'd be glad to know that you succeeded in changing my attitude in many ways. I guess this is life and each of us has to face it and live it. How to find the strength to go on? Well I guess we just have to look within.

Oh by the way, it's been long since I saw your Mom. I miss her and a phone call doesn't quite cut it anymore. So make it happen.

You know we miss you here. Sometimes it is a flash, sometimes it is a story and sometimes it is just like a background process. To each their own.

Peace and love,
Me.